The Ugly Truth,

Its always hard to face the truth. Especially when it involves someone very close to you. A friend, family or even your better half. You can block the truth only so much. It eventually comes out. Especially when yu introspect. And yu tend to do that a lot when you are as free as i am. Sometimes this truth may bring a smile to your face, but more often than not, it is not so. There is a reason its called the Ugly truth. Trust and love are feeble emotions. It makes your vulnerable to hurt. And nothing hurts nore than the truth.  The truth that you are being backstabbed by your friends, ignored by your family or of lesser priority to your love.  Realisation eventually dawns and the sadness sets in. There is only so much denial left in a man. but there is always accepting the truth but still holding on to emotions. This may sound dumb, but love for family and your better half. Well if it is true, you gotta accept the cold hard truth and live with it. No drama, no drastic steps. No revenge. Jus a glum pale acceptance. A cold sharp pain in the chest and then you put one leg in front of another to take the next step.... Literally and metaphorically.

Second love.... An elusive thought.

Can love happen again?  Can a hurt and bleeding heart heal and feel the intense emotions  and ecstacy of being in love once again. I do not know. Till now i am still haunted in my dreams by her image. I still hope secretly she comes back while i put out a brave face for the rest of the world. And yet it has happened.TO stronger souls maybe.....  The find love once more.... But i have my doubts... Does the past ever really go away? Dont the regrets and tears come back. Do yu apply what yu learnt to make this one suceed. Then doesnt this make it science then a relationship. A experiment than love. I do not know and i am still ignorant of the heart and soul... I await for a miracle to happen... A slim hope, yet not fading,,,, Holding on to a straw on a stormy night in the deep sea.... As the idea and thought of falling in love once again still eludes me.

A random rambling.......... of a depressed soul

I have something to say....

yu lie down at night and yu close your eyes and yu feel something. Yu always feel the remnants of the day ligering in your thought even when you shut your eyes to put a stop to what it was.

Somedays laughter and gaitey happens to be a good companion but on most, a deep sense of loss, a sense of what and how it could have been haunts your nights.


Everything is so close. and yet everything is so far. You reach out to it, and jus cannot touch it. I look up and ask myself, wats your purpose. Why are yu here? What do yu want from me. but answers i do not get.

Why all this hurt and yet a void in me. wi does this hollowness engulf me as everyday goes by. What is the point of this meaningless existance when a simple heart yu could not please.

there is no getting rid of the past. the past haunts everyone is the same in a way. we all avoid what we are afraid of. run away from the things that scare us. think about the past and let it haunt us for a little while. turn away from the people that love us, Why is there this nothingness inside us?

Pills and alcohol had been a good comapnion, when life had let me down,
to move on the way i have. Holding to the past, not letting things pass, No more. The reasons to embrace the past has made me let go of my vices.............

Now i felt this apathy and i wonder if t makes me a hypocrite. maybe. But does it make me a Bad person? I do not know,,,,, Something on my mind
so anyways.......... The thing is. i donot feel any kind of pity or sadness for this world anymore...., I have enough reasons to hurt as such.... This is how lyf is.

A random rambling.......... of a depressed soul

I have something to say....

yu lie down at night and yu close your eyes and yu feel something. Yu always feel the remnants of the day ligering in your thought even when you shut your eyes to put a stop to what it was.

Somedays laughter and gaitey happens to be a good companion but on most, a deep sense of loss, a sense of what and how it could have been haunts your nights.


Everything is so close. and yet everything is so far. You reach out to it, and jus cannot touch it. I look up and ask myself, wats your purpose. Why are yu here? What do yu want from me. but answers i do not get.

Why all this hurt and yet a void in me. wi does this hollowness engulf me as everyday goes by. What is the point of this meaningless existance when a simple heart yu could not please.

there is no getting rid of the past. the past haunts everyone is the same in a way. we all avoid what we are afraid of. run away from the things that scare us. think about the past and let it haunt us for a little while. turn away from the people that love us, Why is there this nothingness inside us?

Pills and alcohol had been a good comapnion, when life had let me down,
to move on the way i have. Holding to the past, not letting things pass, No more. The reasons to embrace the past has made me let go of my vices.............

Now i felt this apathy and i wonder if t makes me a hypocrite. maybe. But does it make me a Bad person? I do not know,,,,, Something on my mind
so anyways.......... The thing is. i donot feel any kind of pity or sadness for this world anymore...., I have enough reasons to hurt as such.... This is how lyf is.