A negotiation with death!

 I decide to disappear.,
Where my weeping you will not hear,
I go and sit, and slit my wrist.
But without something sharp to use,
My heart it can take no more abuse!

A blade i find, glistening in the darkness i called life,
In my hand it feels right, cutting along, this knife.


of unconsciousness and I try to wake
Is my heart meant to be left in ache!

For the life of shame, I'll take the blame
But it wasn't her fault, I lived that way.

Promised land....

Its not a bright day, gloomy clouds hang over my head.
Its a spring day, and yet everything is dead.
I stare up into the sky wishing i am already gone,
taken to the promised land....

I want the pain to stop,
The tears to go away,
The love it had to vanish,
I wish not to be here anymore.
Hold me by my hand,
Take me to the promised land.

If I gave you time and space and all my faith,
 that one day you will see my face and feel my love,
would you come and take me to the promised land.

 I have gone through life with nothing to look to....
till the day i held your hand.
You gave me a reason to have hope.
A reason, something worth fighting for.
Now i do not want to walk out that door,
Dont want to give up what i never had before...
I do not wish to loose whats been promised
I wanna be taken to to the place where yu exist. My Promised Land.